I'm Not Okay *shadowpook and I*

"Sarah, yoru upet-"

"No Kaien, she's right"

Sarah picked up a book and threw it at Kaien, nt missing thsi time

Kaien groled "You little-"

"Don;t you dare!" Snapped Melody, jumping to her feet "I can forgive hat you've done to me but you lay ONE FINGER on my daughter and I won't be held responsible for my actions"

Sarah sat there sobbing and crying. She looked so pathetic

Kaien rgowled

"Get out of my House Kaien" aid Melody "And STAY out"

Kairen growled and stormed off into the night with no idea of where he was going.

Sarah sobbed

Melody hugegd her

Sarah leant against her mother. "I loved him mum, i wanted him to be my dad. but how could he be my dad when he doesnt love my mum?"

Poisen blearly opened her eyes. Those painkillers werent very effective, unless you count making her throw up or headaches and blurred vision as effects

Melody found that, for once, she didn;t have any way to answer her.

Kaien came in "Hey Holl, yes I know visiting hours ae over but it' raining, 3AM and your about the only person who isn't gonna kill me fi I turn up at this hour"

"Dont judge me so quickly, these painkillers are a bleeding night mare that come in a nice shiny case. SHe said sitting up adn failing. They dint help her sleep weither. she was quite weak

Kaien whinced "OSrry" he said

"What are you saying sorry for? i freakin attacked you earlier." said Poisen, wincing as her memory came back

Kaien glanced away "I remember" he said quietly "I wouldn;t mind but I'd ust about managed to control everything i felt for you"

Poisen closed her eyes. "I had it all under control. Remember when i first appeared again? i could kiss you, in teh most personal way possible, and feel nothing. Maybe a small spark at some forgtotten memory, but tahts it. But then earlier i just...lost control...."

"Felt omething I'd never thought I would" aid kaien, almot carrying on her sentence "A feeling I thought I'd finally got control over, that I'd never feel towards YOU again..."

"At least not imn this life time." finished Poisen, her eyes were closed. She opened them. "I'm in control again Kaien."She smiled weakly. "I wont ever try and have sex with you again. Ever." she said before closing her eyes again

Kaien looked out the indow "But I'll want to hold you, not anything like what happened, just be ith you, I can;t promise I can hide it forever but I'll try"

"Stop sounding liek your carrying on my sentences when what you say isnt true." hissed Poisen

"Isn;t true?!" aid Kaien. turning away to hide tears "It' so fucking true I've puhed away pretty much everything by denying it!"

"You dont love me kaien, you love melody." said Poisen, her vioce was dull and lacked emotion. She refused to react to this. Kaien was drunk after all.

Kaien looked at her, bloodshot eyes rimmed red "No Poison, I thought I did but I didn;t. She as a ditraction that wasn't alchohol or drugs, he wa ood for me but I didn;t love her, she didn;t deserve to be led along by me, it's a ood thing for her she ended it"

Poisen didnt look at him but her vioce now had a hint of exmotion in it. Surprise. "She dumped you?"

"Tonight" croaked Kaien.

"I'm sorry. But at least now your single and can go get drunk an fuck every whore in teh pub at once."

"WOnt help" he said simply "Alchohol does nothing for me anymore, and I don't need a different person in my bed everynight, something empty int hat I want"