I'm Not Okay *shadowpook and I*

"What do you want kaien? alchol no, drugs no, a woman in your bed no. What else could YOU possibly want?"

"Apart from you?"

"You dont want me! You made that clear earlier, and plus, sa i remember you never cared for me. I was a good fuck and thats about it." she said, quating from teh many years before when they had met again.

"I a an abusive idiot with a drug prolem" said Kaine, his head in his hands "I never realised how much I'd miss you until you were gone, I mis everything about you even when e're together because I know I'll always just have to watch from the distance, your smile, the way your eyes light up when your excited, the way you chew you lip only when your really nervous, how your eyebrow meet off to the left slightly when you're angry...."

"Kaien, your relationship with your fiance may be over, but mine hasnt. And i have Morten adn Scarlet to think about. And...I cant let myself get sucked into teh again. It would kill me kaien. I'd just end up leaving you because your hit me. and any way, i locked those feelings away years ago. No matter what you do, kiss me, hug me, have sex with me, the feelings probably wont resurface, because iw ouldnt let them."

Kaien stayed completely ilent, hiding the fact he was crying.

Poisen opened her eyes and looked at him. "Kaien...Your crying." she said softly, reaching up and wiping teh tears away, unable top help herself

Kaien didn;'t move.

Poisen brushed away the tears with her fingers gently. "Dont cry."

"I acn't help it"

Poisens hand stayed on his cheek. "Not even if i said it made me sad?"

"You'll never love me that way again, nothing could stopntears for that"

"BUt you never loved me. so why would you care?" said Poisen. He vioce begcame stiff and hard, adn she began to remove her hand

"I love you ith every inch of my being" siobbed Kaien "i don;t know how to explain that to you"

"Dont cry." said Poisen, softening again, her hand returning to his face, gently stroking his face

Kaien tryed to turn away "You already said you dont lov me, no stop making this harder"

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