Fragile Future *shadowpook and I*

"It isnt unlikly. When ray comes back he'll find you. thatray did love you, and i know he still does."

"They said he might never come back, that there's only a tiny chance he ever will. I ca't live on only a tiny chance. I need to be wth him or..."

"Shayne! NO! Many people never get to find there true love, but you were lucky enough to. even if it was for a short time, feel lucky for what you got! i cant believe that even now, after all you've been through, you can still act a bit spoilt! stop wanting things. and actually, wanting to be close to this new ray, could be classed as cheating, cos the old ray is technically still alive."said mikey, his natrual thing of rambling taking over again

"I'd rather have never met him at all than to lst him ike this, and I have to learn to love him Mikey, It's still Ray he's just changed a bit, I an deal with a few bruises to be back wih everything I wanted"

"If ray could hear you now, i think he'd kill himself all over again from teh filth taht just came out of your mouth." said mikey angrily. "Soem of us dont get to have a love. heck, some of us want to so badly, yet there treated as fucking players! i want to find some one to love, so badly. i want to find some one to hold and cherish, and you just want to throw it all away? you want to forget it all?" said mikey staring at him in anger nad frustration

"I could cope if he'd died" said Shayne "ThenI'd have closure, but like this I'llhave to watch him be with other peple and not even care that I can't move on. He doesn;t remember what we had, Yu don;t know how much that hurts Mikes. At least if he'd died or we'd never met there wouldn;t be this stranger walking round in the bdy of theguy I love..."

"The new ray cant be with any one else.his body an dpart of his mind taht is locked away still loves you. he'll never be able to love anotehr person."

"It won;t matter, he'll still be with other people. He'll still act like he loves them, he'll be able to say publicly that they're with him. Noone would ever know he'd even known we like that"

"I doubt it. could you ever do taht?"

"This isn't Ray remember? You said tt yourself. He doesn;t love me. I love him with everything I am, nt just in some locked aay croner of my brain"

"I dont think he could face another person. it may be clocked away but it'll fight to come out. every time ray gets an offer from anotehr person or looks at another person, he'll automaticly compare them to you, and he'll automatically think taht there not you and move on."

"Then why can;t I be with him now?! If he wants me then whats the problem?!"

"He doesnt know he wants you. adn you dont want him to want you, cos if he does he can stop teh old ray coming back."

"But maybe if I'm there the old Ray'll come ou faster" said Shayne, despperation obvious in his eyes.

"Shayne, you have to let him go" said Lilly.

Mikey blnked, having forgotten she was there. he blushed lightly as he remembered everything he said about wanting a girl and love

"But-"

Lilly slapped him, suddenly getting angry "Shayne get over yourself yu spoilt brat! That's not the guy you love and he never will be if you o back. He doesnt love you like this. And if you go back he'll probbaly reat you even worse! He won't just be beating you up he'll be putting you in hpital with broken bones, Hell he might even rape you! And do you really want your first time with Ray to be like that?!"

Shayne stared at her, unable to say anything. His cheek stung where'd hit it.

"Lilly, calm down. Please?" said mikey. he took her face in his hands gently and brought her eyes up to look at him. "Calm down. please, i dont like it when your angrey. Please please calm down. for me?"

Lilly took a deep breath and nodded "should just let he bastard o back to a life of eatings" muttered Lilly

"Now thats not you Lil. i know you, adn you would never say that."

"He should, He ats like he knows everything and everything'll be fine but he desnt know anything about losing something yu'll never get back, not getting something that's supposed to be agical. He just assumes Raywont hurt him like that and then he'll come running home when he does!"

"Just cause some bastard raped you doesnt mean it'll happen tome!"

Mikey tensed, his hands still on lilly face. he was careful not to hurt her though. "Dont talk to her like that." mikey said scathing

"I doesn;t" said Shayne in complete denialthat it'd ever happen.

Lilly pulled away from Mikey and glared at Lshayne "I asked you no to mention that"

"Then stp acting like Rays gonna ikill me! I'm going home"

"Erm, charlie's probably waiting for you to try that and is probably sat nearby the house just waiting for you to do that. And lily, please dont be upset."

"Indont care" snpped Shayne and walked out.

Lillysighed "Im niot"

Gerard shivered "It's freezing, maybe he wont be coming back"

Mikey gently pulled her into a hug.

Charlie shook her head. "I know people gerard. He'll get in a fight over it with soem one nad come storming back to prove every one wrong."